insomnia..=(

Insomnia..what happened to me huh?
Can you imagine how it feels when you can’t fall sleep throughout the whole night?
When you’re darn tired, but you just can’t make yourself sleep for more than an hour,
And keep waking up throughout the night?
And that’s why I’m here,
Writing this post, hoping that I’ll make myself more tired in order to sleep for few more hours..

Lots of thoughts flying through my mind in this sleepless night…
I keep asking the same question..
Asking the same question to myself and to God…
Why?
Why don’t I fall for someone else, but the one that I can’t fall in love for?
And why would this happen to be you but not someone else?

How does it feel when you’re sitting just opposite to each other..
but you just can’t talk to her..at all?
How does it feel when you can only stare at her name in the MSN online list..
but you just dare not to talk to her?

Why would I do so?
The reason is pretty simple..
I know that there’s someone else in your life.
I know that I don’t stand a chance.
so I don’t wanna lose you as a friend..
and wishing you to be happy at all time..

I care about your feelings all this while..
Though you may feel that I actually did something bothering you..
But I tried my best to just hide my feelings from you..
Afraid that you will take me as a weirdo…
I’m so sorry that I fall for you..for you just treating me as your friend..

If I were given a chance to choose all over again..
I wonder what would I choose to be..
To be a womanizer? And fooling around?
Or to be a faithful person? And hoping that someone would appreciate me in the end?

To most of the people, true love can be found easily..
But to me, it isn’t as easy as it would be..
I wish I could forget about you..
But my CNS memory in you is too deeply buried..

I need a time machine,
I need something that can forget about the past.

It's 6.45am now..
I wanna fall in sleep so badly..Hopefully I can sleep in the end..
Good night to me and good morning too! =P

朋友都说
我傻
我执著
我太痴情

但我也想
不傻
不执著
不痴情

如果能忘记一切重来,
多希望我不曾出现在你的生活里…