sometimes I hate myself for being a perfectionist,
always wanted my life to be so perfect…
wanted all those works done by me to be flawless…

it’s kinda tired to live in such a way sometimes…
especially the gathering+competition is around the corner…
argh, that’s why I said…
I hate being a perfectionist..=(

you know,
looking back what I’ve done so far,
I found that…
throughout my days in IMU I’ve learnt a lot more than just knowledge from notes…

in such a way that,
I’ve learnt the way of treating people…

some people are taking things for granted,
showing their annoying faces to you,
asking you to do something for them…
when things are done for them,
they don’t give you a damn…

some people, when you’re close to them,
and when you ask for their help in a good way,
they are the life savers to help you when you’re in trouble…
and those are the people in the academic affairs!
Thumbs up for some of them working in that department! =D

some people, they are rather selfish…
whatever they want, they want it for their benefits…
I mean, it’s absolutely alright to be like that,
we all wanted the best stuffs afterall right?
but don’t be over dude,
or you’ll be killing your own reputation…

among all these people,
there are some ways dealing with them,
without getting yourself into troubles…
I know lots of ways to social,
making myself a good social network within the uni,
among the students, staffs and lecturers…

but somehow,
there is this girl…
only this girl in the whole uni (or maybe the whole world? who knows…)
that can really kill off all my social skills…

yeah,
I don’t know how to face her, at all…
especially for the time being…

what I’m trying to say here,
I’m pretty sure that you all will know it…
it’s her…
when I saw her face,
I would just stun and my mind would just go blank…
and that was the routine in my uni life, in sem2, sem3 and even sem4…

but these days,
the day after sem5…
time changed everything,
the fate takes over and impacting my life…
when she finally know about my feelings towards her…

I wasn’t able to talk to her even just a few words,
and we’re just hi-byes all the time?
avoiding her ‘coz I’m afraid that I will be losing her as friend…
the situation is getting more and more awkward than before…
I even wonder…are we still friends like we were before?

some say that I was being too sensitive,
I’m not denying it but at the end of the day,
I just wanted to know what happened…

I miss the moment when we can still hang out like usual,
I miss the moment we have trip together with the whole gang,
I miss the moment when I was waiting for u in the parking area,
I miss the moment we were teasing each other, encouraging each other,
I miss all those moments, that faded away, lost in the air…

Loving someone, doesn’t have to hold her tight…
As long as she’s always smiling and living happily,
That’s the best return that I can get…
‘coz at the end of the day, you just want your love ones to be happy,
Dontcha?

Still, I wish you would know all this one day…

Argh…I’m disgusted by my own words…
Darn…